September 1st was Cameron's birthday. I was anxious as the day was approaching. Wondering if it would be just a regular day or if I would just completely breakdown. The closer the day came, the more I realized how much harder it was becoming for me. I was crying the days leading up to the 1st... and the actual first, I didn't do much at all.
I didn't want to be home. Eric and I went to a bed and breakfast in town just so I didn't have to. I felt maybe that would get me away... as we walked into our room, look at the bed sheets on our bed!
Yes, I believe that was Cameron showing me he was with me still.
I have way more things to say that I don't know if I will yet... some things that have happened recently that I am dealing with right now. I will write about it soon because I feel the need to share with other mom's that have gone through this. I know reading about others experiences helped me the most... I will soon.
But right now, I just wanted to write a quick post saying that I miss Cameron.... I hope he's watching over us and I love you so much and wish you were here. Happy birthday, my love!
I'll be writing more this weekend... I think.